Natalia 90

Nevermore

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Wed, 31 Oct 2007 18:58:33 +0100

To see the actor without tears
Dark rivers carve the years between the lines of self control
In my psychotic karmic fear, I own your tears anyway
And I am you and we are not afraid

And we won't be here for long
The heart collector sings his song that's slowly boiling over

Nevermore to feel the pain
The heart collector sang
And I won't be feeling hollow for so long
Nevermore to feel the pain
The words fall out like fire
believe when you can't believe anymore

The stage is empty now
The hope we hold and cannot allow
The corrupt eclectic takes his fatal bow

And we won't be here for long
The heart collector sings his song again

Nevermore to feel the pain
The heart collector sang
And I won't be feeling hollow for so long
Nevermore to feel the pain
The words fall out like fire
believe when you can't believe anymore

Voleti izgubljeno....izgubiti voljeno

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Fri, 13 Apr 2007 01:05:42 +0100

da li je gore izgubiti nesto/nekog koga volite ili voleti nesto sto nikad nece biti vase...
meni je isto...

Ne mogu da zaspim

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Tue, 10 Apr 2007 04:27:03 +0100

legla sam pre nekih 3 sata...
ne mogu da zaspim,slusala muzikui dalje je slusam i ne mogu da zaspim
dosadno mi je pa zato pisem ovaj blog...

volim te

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Wed, 14 Mar 2007 20:13:29 +0100

eto,rekla sam
nije vazno koga,zasto....
volim i to je to.
eto sada i vi znate da ja nekog volim
mnogo,mnogo,jako mnogo volim tu osobu!
eto...

ma pukla sam

.....death......

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Fri, 23 Feb 2007 22:34:07 +0100

Then this I screamed:
"Come back to Me for
I was born in love with thee
So why should fate stand inbetween?"

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You've been a fallen angel
Ripped out of the sky
But as your wings grew strong enough
You left me - behind to die

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I will rest my head side by side
To the one that stays in the night
I will lose my breath in my last words of sorrow
And whatever comes will come soon
Dying I will pray to the moon
That there once will be a better tomorrow

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"Where have all the feelings gone?
Why is the deadliest sin - to love as I loved you?
Now unblessed, homesick in time,
soon to be freed from care, from human pain.
My tale is the most bitter truth:
Time pays us but with earth & dust, and a dark, silent grave.
Remember, my child: Without innocence the cross is only iron,
hope is only an illusion & Ocean Soul's nothing but a name...�

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Safely away from the world
In a dream, timeless domain
A child, dreamy eyed,
Mother's mirror, father's pride
I wish I could come back to you
Once again feel the rain
Falling inside me
Cleaning all that I've become

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"Teach me passion for I fear it`s gone
Show me love, hold the lorn
So much more I wanted to give to the ones who love me
I`m sorry
Time will tell (this bitter farewell)
I live no more to shame nor me nor you
And you... I wish I didn`t feel for you anymore...

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And tomorrow
When it's dawning
And the first birds start to sing
In the pale light of the morning
Nothing's worth remembering
It's a dream
It's out of reach
Scattered driftwood on the beach

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eto,ne znam ni zasto sam odabrala ove stihove i slike....

Summer night city

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Tue, 06 Feb 2007 12:43:29 +0100

Waiting for the sunrise
Soul dancing in the dark
Summer night city
Walking in the moonlight
Love-making in a park
Summer night city

In the sun I feel like sleeping
I can't take it for too long
My impatience slowly creeping
Up my spine and growing strong
I know what's waiting there for me
Tonight I'm loose and fancy-free

When the night comes with the action
I just know it's time to go
Can't resist the strange attraction
From that giant dynamo
Lots to take and lots to give
Time to breath and time to live

Waiting for the sunrise
Soul dancing in the dark
Summer night city
Walking in the moonlight
Love-making in a park
Summer night city

It's elusive
Call it glitter
Somehow something turns me on
Some folks only see the litter
We don't miss them when they're gone
I love the feeling in the air
My kind of people everywhere

When the night comes with the action
I just know it's time to go
Can't resist the strange attraction
From that giant dynamo

And tomorrow
When it's dawning
And the first birds start to sing
In the pale light of the morning
Nothing's worth remembering
It's a dream
It's out of reach
Scattered driftwood on the beach

I know what's waiting there for me
Tonight I'm loose and fancy-free
I love the feeling in the air
My kind of people everywhere

zasto sam se danas probudila

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Mon, 05 Feb 2007 22:00:51 +0100

evo kako je izgledao moj dan danas
prvo se probudim i onako na vrat na nos mi lupa neko na prozor. doneli mi tv sto je moja mama narucila,jos gospodja narucila i raznih stvari i ja sve morala da prihvatim jer nikog nije bilo kuci.sve ja to unesem,frizider nov,usisivac,masine,tv,dvd....sve samo stavim u dnevnu sobu.
i to trajalo 2 sata,a ja napolju u spavacici,smrzla sam se.
odem da se okupam,operem kosu i sad posto ja kosu peglam,samo je osusim i bila bas cupava.
ja ukljucim peglu za kosu i ona crkne.e onda sam se bas iznervirala,uzela peglu za ves i sa njom ispeglala kosu.kosa mi bila ko slama,i ja reko da stavim malo gela i ulja,stavim ja i onda bude skroz masna,ko da je nisam ni prala,napravim jos gore.
brzo radim domaci i kad ga uradium skontam da to nije taj domaci,tj. da radim pogresne zadatke
hocu da posaljem drugu poruku da mi ponese lektiru,ali nemam kredita.
Babi pozlilo i ja morala sve tu da je smirujem i da joj kuvam caj
dolazi mladja sestra iz skole i vristi da je gladna i morala da joj kuvam,ispekla sam se ko nikad,spremim joj sve i ona kaze da nece to da jede i da ide u pekaru da kupi sebi nesto,a dok sam to spremala slucajno sam srusila saksiju sa cvecem.
spakovala sam torbu i otisla na bus.
u autobusu srela jednu osobu koju ne podnosim,pa se jos vise iznerviram.
stignem ja u skolu,odem uzmem lektiru i posto sam stigla sat vremena ranije, trazim drugaricu iz doma,a ona nije dosla u skolu.
ja krenula u teksas jaknici i smrzla se.
prvi cas srpski,niko mi nije rekao da treba lektira,dobijem keca i ako ne procitam za sutra i ne napisem dobicu jos jednog.
i jos na sledecem casu zakaze kontrolni iz patologije za sutra.
farmakologiju me pita i da mi minus
dodjem na fiziku i tu mi je malo bilo bolje
krenem kuci i u bus udje neka ciganka i stane pored mene a stasno smrdi,da se ugusis.
dodjem kuci,glava me boli,pokusam da upalim tv i nema boje,nema programa,nema nista!
nece da radi!
antena crkla.
sestre mi vriste po ceo dan,dodje mi da ih ubijem sve.
pas mi je nestao
mene glava i dalje strasno boli
jesam napomenula da nisam otisla na koncert theriona danas i da sam jos i zbog toga strasno tuzna?

eto
sve ovo za jedan dan
a dan jos nije gootov

Goodbye

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Tue, 28 Nov 2006 23:32:30 +0100

znaci,ne uklapam se....
Odo ja...
lepo je bilo ovde...
Goodbye

Drugarice

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Mon, 27 Nov 2006 21:11:54 +0100

Svidja mi se jedan decko koji se svidja i mojoj drugarici,medjutim njemu se svidja jedna druga devojka kojoj se on ne svidja,a nas tri idemo zajedno u skolu...
Sta da radim?

Magla.....

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Mon, 20 Nov 2006 19:56:47 +0100

Ispred mene nista sem magle,
Ne znam gde sam,
Nikad nisam ni znala,
samo sam verovala da znam...

nije tesko, ne boli,
najgore je proslo,
sada nastavi kao ja,
bez imalo ljubavi i nade,
bez imalo svetla,
nemoj se bojati tame

Pevaj, ali nek se cuje tisina,
Placi, ali nek ti vetrovi suze brisu,
pati, nek ti magla izbrise osecanja ,
zaboravi,kreni napred,
nije kraj,jer on ne postoji,
pocetak nije,izgubljen je

Ostavi ono sto ni imao nisi,
zaboravi ono sto volelo te nije,
ne moze vise nista da te boli,
ne znam kako da te utesim,
patim jer places i to me jako boli,
ne znam kako da ti kazem da te volim

Mozda to sto osecam i nije ljubav,
mozda su mi bol,magla i tama
pomogli da shvatim
da ne mogu tebi da se vratim

Na istom smo sad,
ne znas kako bih zelela
da ti se vratim,
zasto da ne?
Ne znam ni sama,
samu sebe ne razumem,
samo se molim da me zaboravis,
neka patim ja
jer dvoje tuznih previse je

Nastavi napred,
I ja cu tako...
Magla je sve jaca i hladnija,
suze se u led pretvaraju,
pesmu ne cujem vise,
stala je kod imena tvog
tisina i magla u mraku
ne plase me,
zasto bi?
Ali plasim se toga,
Da srescemo se na tom putu usamljenih�

Zasto ljudi mrze goticarke i metalke?

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Thu, 19 Oct 2006 10:54:17 +0100

pa ajde sad,objasnite mi zasto ih kako rece bl00dz3r0 ne simpatise 95% ljudi?

Moje gluposti

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Tue, 12 Sep 2006 04:54:22 +0100

Uspomene

Secas li se,
kako smo srecni mogli biti,
pamtis li,
koliko smo smo se visoko mogli dici?
A ti srusio si sve
Kad si rekao da sam jos gora od nje
Sta ti se to desilo,ne znam
Niti zelim da znam
Mogli smo dohvatiti zvezde,
sve smo mogli uraditi mi,
ali,ne,nismo imali srece
i ne placi zbog mene sad,
nije vise vazno,
sve sto smo imali bilo je lazno,
jer ti me nikad i nisi voleo,
ne trazi od mene da pokusamo is pocetka sve,
Unisti me i digni sa dna,
daj mi snagu pa je oduzmi,
nije vazno,
izbrisi mi sve iz glave,unisti sve sto ostalo je od nas,
i ovako ne postoji spas,
samo ne trazi mi opet da prodjem kroz sve to,
ne ubedjuj me da ce bolje biti jer
opet isto bice sve,znam,
opet svako od nas plakace sam
a suze ce isprati kisa,
nestace sve,secanja i uspomene
i samo bol nam ostaje,
a nekog nikad nece nista boleti,
neko kao ti svemu ce odoleti,
a neko kao ja ce opet nocima tiho plakati
neko ce te uvek,bez obzira na sve,
neko koga unistavas,taj ce te uvek najvise voleti

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Ne gledaj me u oci,
to boli,
ne prilazi mi i ne dotici me,
jer svaki dodor tvoj pece vise od vatre
ali suze pozar gase,
kad me pogledas pravis se da nista ne znas
a ja samo zelim da sve nestane,
da zaboravim.
Nemoj da izgovaras moje ime,
Ubij svaku sekundu srece u meni
I ponosi se time ,
Kao poslednje djubre baci me,
nije vazno,
sve sam prosla da gore ne moze biti,
ali bojim se,
da ces ipak drugu zavoleti...

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Mrak

celog zivota pred ocima bio joj je mrak,
mozda je to samo bilo crno svetlo,
niko ne zna,
neprimetno se odvajala od ostalih,
njoj stranih i neprijateljskih lica,
kao da ne postoji,
nestajala je sama od sebe,
nestajala je u svoj unutrasnji mrak,
u svoje tamno svetlo.
Jednom,kad je zelela da vidi sunce i dugu,
otvorila je oci,
ali i dalje,mrak je bio sve sto je videla.
mozda je bila slepa,
mozda nije ni otvorila oci,
mozda nije ni zelela da vidi,
a mozda je prvo morala da pusti svoje srce,
da ono ugleda svetlost pre ociju njenih.

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Ljubav

sta novac znaci?
nekome sve,nekome nista.
a ljubav?
sta je to ljubav?
da li je to samo lepo i prolazno osecanje?
da li je to nesto sto treba da nas usreci?
a onda,opet,sta je sreca?
da li je ljubav nesto zbog cega vredi ziveti
i za cega se vredi boriti?
da li je to nesto sto se kupuje?
mozda je ljubav prijateljstvo,
mozda je to nesto zarazno,
moze biti i bolest,
a mozda je to ono osecanje koje te lomi,
a opet ti daje snagu da nastavis dalje.
Osecanje koje te ubija i koje ti daje zivot,
Mozda je to jedino sto nece nestati
u vrtlogu zaborava,
mozda mi i ne znamo sta je ljubav,
mozda i ne postoji,
mozda ne znamo da ga definisemo,
a mozda je to osecanje toliko snazno
da se definise samo jednom recju-ljubav.

Neke pesme koje meni znace

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Sun, 30 Jul 2006 16:34:53 +0100

Epica - Consing to oblivion

How can we let this happen and
Just keep our eyes closed �till the end

The only thing that counts is the prosperity of today
Most important to us is that our bills get paid

Our good intentions have always been delayed

How can we let this happen and
Just keep our eyes closed �till the end
When we will stand in front of heaven's gate
It will be too late!

Try to unlearn all that you've learnt,
try to listen to your heart
No, we can't understand the universe
by just using our mind
We are so afraid of all the things unknown

A must we appease is the lust to get laid
Nothing really matters, just devouring our prey

Our good intentions have always been delayed so
Our generous acts have always come too late

We are so afraid of all the things unknown
We just flee into a dream that never comes true

Low to the ground we feel safe
Low to the ground we feel brave

Oblivisci tempta quod didicisti

Open your eyes; we're not in paradise
How can't you see, this stress is killing me
Fulfil your dreams; life is not what is seems
We have captured time
so time made us all hostages without mercy

Seemingly generous fooling ourselves,

Selfishly venomous time tells

Too much thinking goes at the cost of all our intuition
Our thoughts create reality
But we neglect to be!
So we're already slaves of our artificial world
We shouldn't try to control life
but listen to the laws of nature

We all think we're generous
But we only fool ourselves
The only thing that matters is
Our way and our vision

Selfishly we're venomous
But you know the time tells us
There is more to life than our
Higher positions, race for perfection
Better, faster
We must return to the laws of the nature
Free ourselves from madness

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Epica - Feint

The very brightest candle of all has been extinguished
Smothered by those who could not bear to face reality

Every beat of your heart tore the lies all apart
Made foundations quiver
Every wave in the lake caused the porcelain to break
And I shiver...

The leftover tallow just doesn�t contain
All the right answers
Under a sea of dust lies a vast wealth of wisdom

An untuched snow turns red
Innocence dies

This black page in history is not colourfast,
will stain the next
All that remains is just a feint of what was meant to be
This black page in history is not colourfast,
will stain the next
And nothing seems in life,
in dreams like what was meant to be

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epica - memory

Midnight
Not a sound from the pavement
Has the moon lost her memory?
She is smiling alone
In the lamplight
The withered leaves collect at my feet
And the wind begins to moan

Memory
All alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
Life was beautiful then
I remember
The time I knew what happiness is
Let the memory live again

Every street lamp
Seems to beat
A fatalistic warning
Someone mutters
And a street lamp gutters
And soon it will be morning

Daylight
I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life
And I mustn't give in
When the dawn comes
Tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin

Burnt out ends of smokey days
The stale cold smell of morning
The street lamp dies
Another night is over
Another day is dawning

Touch me
It's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me
You'll understand what happiness is
Look a new day has begun ...

***Lordi - Blood red sandman

They called me the Leather Apron
They called me the smiling Jack
They prayed to the heavens above
that I would never ever come back

Can you hear how the children weep
Chills of fear like a sawblade cutting deep

Once again there is pain
I bring flames - I bring cold
I�m the Blood Red Sandman coming home
On this unholy night I will make you my own
Blood Red Sandman
Coming home again

Red drops stain satin so white
The way I sign my name
The neighborhood�s pretty dead at night
And I�m the one to blame

Scream all you want you won�t wake up when you scream
No one leaves
The Monsterican Dream

***Lordi - shildren in the night

I hid them under the floor; for they being here made me sore
And on that day I felt kinda hazy
Now they still gotta be there, �cos there not going anywhere
Whith severed limbs - or call me crazy?
But there are voices in the darkness
In my house every time I close my eyes

In the dead of night I hear em sigh The Children of the night are calling
Hear �em cry they still defy endlessly I feel like falling now they're all
My children of the night

These skulls are so small; here are seven of them in all
I swear to god, now they're deadly silence
But still there voices in the darkness, getting louder all the time

In the dead of night I hear em sigh The Children of the night are calling
Hear �em cry they still defy endlessly I feel like falling now they're all
My children of the night

Now little feet tap at the end of my bed
remorse I seize
I feel theres someone leaning over my head
7 breaths, they freeze!

In the dead of night I hear them sigh The Children of the night are calling
I hear a cry they still defy endlessly I feel like falling
In the dead of night I hear them sigh The Children of the night are calling
I hear a cry they still defy endlessly I feel like falling on the road
My children of the night

After forever - The key

The eyes, looking so cold
Condemn failure
And seek for perfection
will never be attained

They're judging the denying face which stares back
A bewildered revelation

Show me objectivity
And let these eyes judge again

You cannot touch what you can't ever obtain
I'm inexhaustible
As well as empty in my bitter search

My words are yours,
my voice speaks for your thoughts
I am your mirror without remorse,
your reflection without doubts

I fall and fall
I must learn from the bruises
The scars will be my guide

There's no excuse in ignorance
No time for weakness or regret
Face your mirror without doubt
Your reflection without remorse

If knowledge was wisdom
And wisdom the key to inner rest
Teach me...

Xandria - eversleeping

Once I travelled 7 seas to find my love
And once I sang 700 songs
Well, maybe I still have to walk 7000 miles
Until I find the one that I belong

I will rest my head side by side
To the one that stays in the night
I will lose my breath in my last words of sorrow
And whatever comes will come soon
Dying I will pray to the moon
That there once will be a better tomorrow

Once I crossed 7 rivers to find my love
And once, for 7 years, I forgot my name
Well, if I have to I will die 7 deaths just to lie
In the arms of my eversleeping aim

I will rest my head side by side
To the one that stays in the night
I will lose my breath in my last words of sorrow
And whatever comes will come soon
Dying I will pray to the moon
That there once will be a better tomorrow (x2)

I dreamt last night that he came to me
He said: "My love, why do you cry?"
For now it won't be long any more
Until in my cold grave we will lie
Until in my cold grave we will lie

Trail of tears - Illusion

I thought I saw you, out in the crowd
So many faces, but it was you that I picked out
I see the rainfall, outside my window at night
ÿ
I lie between hell and heaven
I lie between right or wrong
ÿ
If I were God I could help you
But I'm just human like yourself
I keep on smiling, 'cause I have this dream
Every night that I go to bed,
I have this picture of you riding for me
ÿ
You say these three words:
"Never forget you"
But when I opened my eyes you were gone far away
You were gone...far away
Gone far away..

Nightwish - Astral romance

A nocturnal concerto
Candlelight whispers me where to go
Hymn of gathering stars as my guide
As I wander on this path of the night

Embroidery of the stars
Undress my feelings for this earth
Send me your salva to heal my scars
And let this nakedness me my birth

Macrocosm poured its powers on me
And the hopes of this world I now must leave
The nightwish I sent you centuries ago
Has been heard by those
Who dwelled in a woe

The distance of our bridal bed
Await for me to be dead
Dust of the galaxies take my hand
Lead me to my beloved's land

Departed by the guillotine of death
I received a letter from the depth
The dream of my lover it carried inside

Caressed by the sharpest knife
I asked you to be my wife
Rays of the setting sun
Were my tears wept upon promises undone

Come to me
Make me believe
to you and your love again

Above the universe
Beneath the Great Eye
I shall desire you forevermore

Nightwish - bless the child

"I was born amidst the purple waterfalls.
I was weak, yet not unblessed.
Dead to the world. Alive for the journey.
One night I dreamt a white rose withering,
a newborn drowning a lifetime loneliness.
I dreamt all my future. Relived my past.
And witnessed the beauty of the beast"

Where have all the feelings gone?
Why has all the laughter ceased?

Why am I loved only when I'm gone?
Gone back in time to bless the child
Think of me long enough to make a memory
Come bless the child one more time

How can I ever feel again?
Given the chance would I return?

I've never felt so alone in my life
As I drank from a cup which was counting my time
There's a poison drop in this cup of Man
To drink it is to follow the left hand path

"Where have all the feelings gone?
Why is the deadliest sin - to love as I loved you?
Now unblessed, homesick in time,
soon to be freed from care, from human pain.
My tale is the most bitter truth:
Time pays us but with earth & dust, and a dark, silent grave.
Remember, my child: Without innocence the cross is only iron,
hope is only an illusion & Ocean Soul's nothing but a name...

The Child bless thee & keep thee forever"

Sleeping Sun

The sun is sleeping quietly
Once upon a century
Wistful oceans calm and red
Ardent caresses laid to rest

For my dreams I hold my life
For wishes I behold my nights
The truth at the end of time
Losing faith makes a crime

I wish for this night-time
to last for a lifetime
The darkness around me
Shores of a solar sea
Oh how I wish to go down with the sun
Sleeping
Weeping
With you

Sorrow has a human heart
From my god it will depart
I'd sail before a thousand moons
Never finding where to go

Two hundred twenty-two days of light
Will be desired by a night
A moment for the poet's play
Until there's nothing left to say

I wish for this night-time to last for a lifetime
The darkness around me
Shores of a solar sea
Oh how I wish to go down with the sun
Sleeping
Weeping
With you

I wish for this night-time to last for a lifetime
The darkness around me
Shores of a solar sea
Oh how I wish to go down with the sun
Sleeping
Weeping
With you....

Swanheart

All those beautiful people
I want to have them, I want to have them all
All those porcelain models
If only I could make them fall

Be my heart a well of love
Flowing free so far above

A wintry eve
Once upon a tale
An Ugly Duckling
Lost in a verse
Of a sparrows carol
Dreaming the stars

Be my heart a well of love
Flowing free so far above

In my world
Love is for poets
Never the famous balcony scene
Just a dying faith
On the heaven's gate

Crystal pond awaits the lorn
Tonight another morn for the lonely one is born

Higher Than Hope

Time it took the most of me
And left me with no key
To unlock the chest of remedy
Mother, the pain ain`t hurting me
But the love that I feel
When you hold me near

The hopes were high
The choirs were vast
Now my dreams are left to live through you

Red Sun rising
Drown without inhaling
Within, the dark holds hard
Red Sun rising
Curtain falling
Higher than hope my cure lies

Passiontide
An angel by my side
But no Christ to end this war
To deliver my soul from the sword
Hope has shown me a scenery
Paradise poetry
With first snow I`ll be gone

The hopes were high...

Red Sun rising...

Your death saved me

Red Sun rising...

Away

The days were brighter
Gardens more blooming
The nights had more hope
In their silence The wild was calling
Wishes were whispering
The time was there
But without a meaning

Away, away in time
Every dream's a journey away
Away to a home away from care
Everywhere's just a journey away

The days departed
Gardens deserted
This frail world
My only rest?
The wild calls no more
Wishes so hollow
The Barefoot Boy
weeping in an empty night

Away ...

Cherish the moment
Tower the skies
Don't let the dreamer
fade to grey like grass
No falling for life
A gain for every loss
Time gathered me
But kept me flying

"For this gift of dream I must pay the price
with the loss of life's pleasures"

Dead Boy�s Poem

Born from silence, silence full of it
A perfect concert my best friend
So much to live for, so much to die for
If only my heart had a home

Sing what you can`t say
Forget what you can`t play
Hasten to drown into beautiful eyes
Walk within my poetry, this dying music
- My loveletter to nobody

Never sigh for better world
It`s already composed, played and told
Every thought the music I write
Everything a wish for the night

Wrote for the eclipse, wrote for the virgin
Died for the beauty the one in the garden
Created a kingdom, reached for the wisdom
Failed in becoming a god

Never sigh...

"If you read this line, remember not the hand that wrote it
Remember only the verse, songmaker`s cry, the one without tears
For I`ve given this its strength and it has become my only strength.
Comforting home, mother`s lap, chance for immortality
Where being wanted became a thrill I never knew
The sweet piano writing down my life"

"Teach me passion for I fear it`s gone
Show me love, hold the lorn
So much more I wanted to give to the ones who love me
I`m sorry
Time will tell (this bitter farewell)
I live no more to shame nor me nor you

And you... I wish I didn`t feel for you anymore..."

A lonely soul... An ocean soul...

Two For Tragedy

Sleep Eden sleep
My fallen son
Slumber in peace

Cease the pain
Life`s just in vain
For us to gain
Nothing but all the same

No healing hand
For your disease
Drinking scorn like water
Cascading with my tears

Beneath the candle bed
Two saddened angels - in heaven, in death

Now let us lie
Sad we lived sad we die
Even in your pride
I never blamed you

A mother`s love
Is a sacrifice
Together sleeping
Keeping it all

No sympathy
No eternity
One light for each undeserved tear

Beneath the candle bed
Two souls with everything yet to be said

za sad,to bi bilo to

Mucenje zivotinja

nobody@mycity.rs (Natalia 90) — Thu, 15 Jun 2006 20:58:23 +0100

evo danas sam videla coveka na motoru kako drzi kuce za vrat vezano lancem,kao obeseno. Pravi se faca jer moze da ga muci i ide ulicom pokazivajuci kako je on mocan. Mrzim kada ljudi muce zivotinje bilo kakve vrste. Nijedan pas nece napasti bez razloga,znam jer svaki dan prolazim pored milion pasa lutalica i ovih udomljenih,nikada mi se nije desilo da me je pas napao. Jadne zivotinje su ubijane zbog kaputa i razne odece,torbi,ljudi zele njihovu kozu a one su nesposobne da se brane.Ne razumem kako neko moze da izbaci kuce na ulicu,znam da mozda nema uslova da ga hrani li da ga zadrzi,ali neka proba da ga da nekom drugom,a ne jednostavno da ga izbaci na ulicu.I te zivotinje imaju osecanja. Ovim ne mislim samona domace vec i na divlje zivotinje. Lovci se hvale kako ubijaju zivotinje,a neki govore "bilo je ili on ili ja",pa zar je suma nas dom? ili je to dom neke zivotinje? da li je ona upala na nas posed ili mi na njen? Kako im nije zao da ostave kuce na ulici zimi,tako jadno i bez hrane,znajuci da ce 99% uginuti od zimoce? Meni je zao kad ne nahranim svog psa bar 3 puta dnevno,mislim da li je gladan ili zedan,a kamoli da ga bez milosti izbacim. Koliko oni traze od nas? Jako malo. Sve sto im treba je malo ljubavi,malo ostataka hrane (koje biste i onako bacili ako nemate psa) i malo mesta za spavanje. A koliko nam pruzaju? Cuvaju nas,tu su kad smo usamljeni,osete kad smo tuzni,prave nam drustvo...
Mislila sam da cu pomoci tim zivotinjama tako sto cu upisati veterinu,ali shvatam da ne mogu sama protiv milion ljudi.Mnogo mi je drago kad pomognem nekoj lutalici,makar ako joj dam parce hleba. Takodje,kad uzimate psa,mislite na njega,nemojte ga zapostaviti.

Od psa gospodaru
Moj zivot traje 10-15 godina.Svaki rastanak od tebe za mene znaci patnju,razmisli o tome pre nego sto me uzmes.Voli me onakvog kakav jesam,jer si me ti birao.Ja nemam tu mogucnost da biram prijatelja i gospodara.Daj mi vremena da shvatim sta od mene trazis,imaj ljubavi za mene,ja od toga zivim.Ne ljuti se na mene i ne kaznjavaj me.Ti imas svoj posao,razonodu,prijatelje....a ja imam samo tebe.Pricaj sa mnom!Iako ti se cini da ne razumem ja ipak znam sta mislis,osecas.Znaj da ne zabortavljam kako se sa mnom postupa.Pomisli pre nego sto me udaris,ja te sa lakocom mogu ugristi,ali ja to necu uraditi.Ne uzimaj me kao igracku dok sam mali i sladak da bi me kasnije odbacio,jer je moja ljubav prema tebi vecna.Brini o meni kad ostarim,ostanem bez zuba,ogluvimi prestanem da se krecem.I o tebi ce neko brinuti- starost je ista za sve.Prati me na mom poslednjem putu.Nemoj nikada reci "ja to ne mogu da gledam" il i"neka se dogodi u mojoj odsutnosti", sa tobom je sve lakse.Neka ti to bude dug za moju vernost.Kada me vise ne bude bilo,nemopj plakati,tugovati.Usreci nekog drugos psa i voli ga kao sto si mene volela.

Ovim putem zelim da vas nagovorim da ne udarate svoje pse,da im posvetite malo vremena,ipak oni vama posvecuju ceo zivot.